I am so thankful for 2nd, 3rd 4th
chances and more. The journey of a
healthy lifestyle is a very hard thing to stay on track of for me it
seems. I have had so many ups and downs
in the past 4 years since I had my Lap-Band procedure in October 2010. It does not seem like it has been that long!!
During that time I have switched jobs, my kids have gotten a lot more active so
we are on the road a lot, I have had two surgeries for a break in my foot, and
just life…..life is hard! When I write,
I write for myself and as you know I make myself very vulnerable, I choose to
share my feelings in hopes that I can inspire others. I have recently started communicating with
someone who has also had lap-band surgery and was frankly at a stand-still and
frankly very frustrated. I had a couple
of great conversations with her and she has expressed how I have inspired her
so much and she feels like she has hope now.
Well I shared that with Tony my husband and cried as I told him. How can I inspire anyone when I can’t seem to
inspire myself to try to be positive and get back on track to a healthy
life-style? Last week I had a moment
where I threw my hands up in the air and said I need help. Tony and I had a couple of tearful talks and
I decided that I was going to start on making baby steps to head back on the
track to a healthy lifestyle.
Monday morning came and I stepped on the scale, now mind
you, I know I have been gaining and frankly not happy about it. Monday I stepped on, looked down and nearly
cried. What had I allowed to happen in
the last year and a half since my fracture in my foot??? Well no exercise, depression, two foot
surgery one that put a plate and 4 screws in my foot and then one to remove
them has caused me to get off of track.
I am not using my foot injury as the only liable culprit in this weight
gain but when you take away the opportunity to walk/run on a treadmill since
April of 2013 and then all the drama that has gone with the injury, surgeries
and time to rehab I became an emotional mess, and chocolate and such seemed to
be my fix L.
Monday after I got off of the scale I proceeded to do as
planned, I went to the kitchen took my meds and vitamins and then proceeded to
make 2 protein shakes. I have had a
protein shake each morning, and one at lunch and then trying to eat a sensible
meal at night. Night time is when it is
hard for me. I am trying to stay as
normal as possible but yet not get to overboard like I have in the past. Tony took me last night to DQ for a treat and
a part of me panicked. What was I going
to have…..well I had a smoothie, probably not the best but it was not my
usually tuxedo chocolate blizzard.
I am looking forward to getting back on track and seeing how
I can be successful again and get healthy again. I had my stitches out of my foot the other
day and I am feeling better but not great yet.
I am eager to get back on my treadmill but I know that I need to take a
few more weeks to let my foot heal for good this time. In the mean-time I am going to work on
me. I am going to try to eat sensibly,
try to be positive, make small changes and look forwards not backwards. I look forward to setting new goals and
achieving them. Most importantly this
time I am going to be more realistic and enjoy the journey and quit worrying
about the finish-line. I have a magic
number again but if I inch my way back to that number in a healthy way…..that
is all that matters, even if I don’t hit it.
Feel free to join me on my journey, encourage me, and hold me
accountable. Also feel free to share my
journey. I am not an expert about
Lap-Band but I am not ashamed to say I have a Lap-Band and I have had some
mountains and valleys with it. I am more
than willing to talk to anyone who has questions or might just need to be
inspired. Thank you and God Bless
You! Jane
