Friday, August 19, 2016

Big news in regards to my weight loss journey.

So if you are one to follow the blog you know back in February around my 40th birthday I decided it was time for me to start looking our for me and my health more.  I had done so great a few years ago around 2010 to drop a lot of weight.  I went from 324 down to 209.  Overall I was doing great but during that time  of 2013 I started to gain again.  It had to be me not watching what I ate so carefully, wasn't getting enough exercise so I began to deprive myself of food which is not good for healthy weight loss and  I was  exercising  to much and too hard.  I ended up with a stress fracture in my right foot as we all remember required years of boots, casts, surgeries and physical therapy.  In the fall I told myself you need to get back on taking care of you but don't do it until you are all in!  So for my 40th birthday I gave myself another nudge.  I started trying to walk more, watch what I ate and be aware of what  I ate and how such.  I met with my primary to find out that my blood sugar was high so we were going to try some meds for that and she encouraged me to get back to getting fills in my Lapband.  Well it had been a long time since I did that and when I went back we put in some fluid,  then about a month later we put a little more in.  So at that point ideally I had some restriction in my band, I was trying to walk more, eat better, and get more emotionally in tune.  Well I got frustrated because from one fill appointment to the next I gain 4 pounds in a month.  Sure I had a few cheats and such but what the heck?  My Dr. Sidney Rohrscibe then shared with me about 3 years ago he suspected that I had a hole in my band and that is why I was gaining weight.  That is when I came MIA from him because I was taking care of my foot problems, depressed and just not motivated to work the program hence gaining a lot of my weight back.  :(  Sure enough he checked my band and I should have had 3 1/2 cc's in my band and I had less than one.  So this meant I need to go back in and replace the port of my band.  On Thursday the 19th I went in for outpatient surgery and thankfully I only needed the port replaced with its tubing.  I am doing great today, feel very motivated to get back to a healthy weight again.  I will say this has been a tough emotional journey.  I know that the band leak has nothing to do with anything I did or didn't do.  I try to stop the negative thoughts that I have failed again in my weight loss journey.

Weight is something that many folks battle with.  For me blogging about it helps me track and share about my journey but most of all I do it to inspire others.  I have encouraged a couple to get back tuned in on their Lapband journey, I have talked to others thinking about looking at the Lapband.   I have many who have felt inspired to do little things for their health and that is great.  It is not easy by any means!!   I am an open book I can tell you the good, the bad, and the ugly.  Something ugly today is how bruised my stomach is but I guess no pain no lose in my case.

If you are a follower, you know I am  not one to ever hide the facts.  I got to 301 this time when I said enough is enough.  Yesterday before surgery I had gotten down to 287.  So I have set many goals with rewards, getting my nails done, day trip get away with the family, and overnight with Tony, and possibly a purse when I hit 225.  That is a good weight for me but I will work very carefully with my team to get to a good weight for me after that.  Team that is a big thing!  I have many on my team: My Lapband doctor and his staff that are all great, my primary, my social worker, my gym, and more importantly my family and friends.

I ask for encouragement and I am always willing to chat with you about my journey and such.  Life is a journey, every one's is different but that is why us helping makes it easier!  I will use this as a way to share my journey.  Pictures from yesterday are attached!