Some events of the last few weeks have led me to decide enough is enough. For those of you that are not aware weight has been a life long struggle for me. In February 2010 I decided to do something that would change my life forever and that it has. My Lapband Journey has been a journey with many ups and downs and I have learned so much in the process. I have decided that I need to take charge of my health again so part that process will include me starting to blog again. Feel free to follow along. I ask for prayers and encouragement. It has been a long time since I blogged so bare with me as I get back into the swing of things.
So my Lapband journey began with the statement "Enough is Enough" back in February of 2010. I decided I was sick of being fat, morbidly obese and frankly worn out and possibly living on borrowed time. I was 324 pounds at my highest point and I did not want to live like that anymore. I decided that I need to take care of my weight and when a new primary doctor suggested Lapband I thought maybe that was something I should look into. On October 19th 2010 I had my lap band surgery weighing in at 309 that day. Since then there have many victories, some set backs, another foot surgery, a changed job and more. I lost weight quickly, loved the attention, the new wardrobe, the energy I felt and more. So many great things were happening but not all were good for me ultimately. My relationship with food and exercise changed by 180 degrees. I became obsessed with what and how much I ate and I exercised more than I ever had. Looking back now I am able to say I was at an unhealthy point in the journey. How do you go from never exercising to going to the gym for 1-1 1/2 hours a day and eating everything in site to where you are scolding yourself for putting a treat in your mouth???? Looking back, everything went so fast, the weight melted off of me. My highest weight was 324 pounds.....lowest weight was 209. 10 pounds from my goal of 199. Something happened when I was 209.....I was a crazy woman. I was not a good wife, mother and more. I was so obsessed with trying not to put calories in my body and exercising just so I could see the numbers get to the magic 199. I was at another critically dangerous point in my weight journey.
Tony finally said in the nicest way possible....you are getting crazy with this and around this time my foot was bothering me. Little did I know I had a stress fracture in my foot. So between my 110% supporting husband saying this is out of control and my foot hurting the exercising slowed to a stop nearly and I started to enjoy food again within reason. So I would take time off of my treadmill....watch a few pounds come back and it was not until I could not walk that I found out I had a stress fracture in my foot and that is when I feel like I gave up and ME. The pounds seem to just jump back on then. I wanted to get back to my treadmill so badly but my doctor kept saying no....finally I got the news that my foot was not going to heal on its own and I was going to need surgery to fix the bone. So from April till June I wore a boot on my foot. June I had a plate and 4 screws put in my foot and I am still not able to get on my treadmill to even walk and it is FEBRUARY!!!! So what do you do when you can't exercise, you are depressed and you have given up on you???? Well duh you eat!! So because I believe in being very transparent.....I was at a good point of about 225 or so and i really think that is a good weight for me. I have gained about 50 pounds in the last year. I am 277 now and it just breaks my heart.
I am not broken because I am a failure...it is weight who cares what a scale says. I am sad because I choose to let one part of my body ( my foot) take over rest of my well being. Emotionally I need to reclaim my love for me. Physically....I can feel the added weight. Emotionally I don't love my body again I am very self conscious of my appearance again. I want to find the love again, this time with a healthy balance.
Like I said, a few things personally have prompted me to decide enough is enough. Something that really irked me this week was the finale of The Biggest Loser. I have mixed opinions about that show anyways but what my overall opinion about the winner this round is this.....It is her journey and only her and her doctor know what the best weight is for her it does not matter what America thinks. I am not the only one who has had weight issues nor will I be the last. I will always be in battle with my weight and learning to be in harmony with it is the part of the journey I need to embrace this time.
So my goal is to get back on the track to better health. Put myself first and start taking care of me again. I have decided emotionally I need more support again so I have decided that I am going to start seeing a Social Worker again and I really like her and she understands my emotional need right now to fall in love with me again and so I am taking steps to do that. I am going to start blogging the good, the bad and the ugly.
I know in the past I have inspired others....I want to be a friend and a supporter of others journeys. I am thankful for my faithful supporters.
Saturday, February 8, 2014
Monday, March 5, 2012
Let's start rockin again!
There comes a time in every ones weight loss journey where they have to just sit down and look at where they have come from, where they are and where they want to go. Well I have been meaning to have one of these moments. My friend Jen had warned me that this day would come. She was right.....my friend Dan also has had one of these moments recently. Now it is my turn to look at the past, present and future. Some of this is ugly and scary but we will do it together!
Past. I started this journey about 2 years ago when my weight hit 324 pounds. My new primary Dr. Nathan Walker at Christie Clinic agreed that it was time for ME to take control of my life. One of the tools he suggested was checking out the Lap Band surgery. I met with Sidney Rohrscheibe at IL Bariatric and he felt I was a good candidate. I began the journey of getting the surgical pre approval and everything set up. I met all the requirements and then as you may recall I had that dreaded ankle injury that ended in surgery. Once that was behind me I was back on my path. On Oct 19th 2010 I had my Lab Band procedure performed. During that first year I had some major transformations occur. I lost 100 pounds within the first year. I changed so much what I allowed myself to eat and drink and my band seem to take charge of other things that it did not think I needed to eat. The first year was was wonderful. I joined a gym, felt very confident and knew that this was my new life.
Current.....Well I feel like I have had a few set backs. I can make many excuses and some are more valid than others. We had the holidays, I am a very busy mom, work has me stressed out beyond words, and well frankly I sort of feel off the high! My band has been giving me some fits lately and does not want to eat some things so then I get into the bad habit of eating some of the same things and sometimes there are not the best choices. I seem to forget that I am important and without me being healthy my kids do not get to be driven everywhere and offered all the things they are, so with that said I need to make a renewed promise to make sure I take my time to go workout, even if it does not work into their plans. I am headed to see my doctor on Thursday in hopes to get a kick in the butt to start getting back on track. Don't get me wrong....I have not fallen off the track....I just am sort of on the spare rail just chillin and drinking a shake.
Future!!! Well this is the most important part....I am human....I am alive....I can get back on the right track. So I have a renewed outlook on some things. Like I said hopefully I can get a little kick in the butt or more importantly a hug of reassurance that I have come this far I can meet all of my goals. I went and worked out today and it felt good. I think that if I start working out again that will defiantly help my mood and my stress so that is a priority. Kenna and I are still planning to do a 5K this spring so that will be a first for me. The future is bright. Me deciding to change my life for the good has opened up so many interesting doors. I still hear from people, I inspire them. That is great to know, especially since I am living proof that you can fall down and get back up and show the world what you are made of. Another thing that this lifestyle change has brought me is the opportunity to be a voice to a larger audience. I am still writing articles for Chambana moms and over the weekend the kids and I were interviewed by a U of I Grad student about kids, nutrition, and obesity. It was very neat! I think something that I have not taken time to do and it is something that I think it it time to get back to the basics is: I need to document my weight, what I am eating, what exercise I am getting and most importantly, I need to start blogging again....that is really how I can talk out my feelings and such. You just get the opportunity to know what is going on in my head! :)
I do appreciate all of you and your support and encouragement. I hope you are doing well. Spring is upon us, I know it seem hard to believe after having ice and snow on my van this morning but Spring is coming! So get outside, go for a walk, a bike ride, working in the garden, enjoy your life. As we are out and about we may just loose a few pounds and gain alot of memories! Take care and blessing to you!
Past. I started this journey about 2 years ago when my weight hit 324 pounds. My new primary Dr. Nathan Walker at Christie Clinic agreed that it was time for ME to take control of my life. One of the tools he suggested was checking out the Lap Band surgery. I met with Sidney Rohrscheibe at IL Bariatric and he felt I was a good candidate. I began the journey of getting the surgical pre approval and everything set up. I met all the requirements and then as you may recall I had that dreaded ankle injury that ended in surgery. Once that was behind me I was back on my path. On Oct 19th 2010 I had my Lab Band procedure performed. During that first year I had some major transformations occur. I lost 100 pounds within the first year. I changed so much what I allowed myself to eat and drink and my band seem to take charge of other things that it did not think I needed to eat. The first year was was wonderful. I joined a gym, felt very confident and knew that this was my new life.
Current.....Well I feel like I have had a few set backs. I can make many excuses and some are more valid than others. We had the holidays, I am a very busy mom, work has me stressed out beyond words, and well frankly I sort of feel off the high! My band has been giving me some fits lately and does not want to eat some things so then I get into the bad habit of eating some of the same things and sometimes there are not the best choices. I seem to forget that I am important and without me being healthy my kids do not get to be driven everywhere and offered all the things they are, so with that said I need to make a renewed promise to make sure I take my time to go workout, even if it does not work into their plans. I am headed to see my doctor on Thursday in hopes to get a kick in the butt to start getting back on track. Don't get me wrong....I have not fallen off the track....I just am sort of on the spare rail just chillin and drinking a shake.
Future!!! Well this is the most important part....I am human....I am alive....I can get back on the right track. So I have a renewed outlook on some things. Like I said hopefully I can get a little kick in the butt or more importantly a hug of reassurance that I have come this far I can meet all of my goals. I went and worked out today and it felt good. I think that if I start working out again that will defiantly help my mood and my stress so that is a priority. Kenna and I are still planning to do a 5K this spring so that will be a first for me. The future is bright. Me deciding to change my life for the good has opened up so many interesting doors. I still hear from people, I inspire them. That is great to know, especially since I am living proof that you can fall down and get back up and show the world what you are made of. Another thing that this lifestyle change has brought me is the opportunity to be a voice to a larger audience. I am still writing articles for Chambana moms and over the weekend the kids and I were interviewed by a U of I Grad student about kids, nutrition, and obesity. It was very neat! I think something that I have not taken time to do and it is something that I think it it time to get back to the basics is: I need to document my weight, what I am eating, what exercise I am getting and most importantly, I need to start blogging again....that is really how I can talk out my feelings and such. You just get the opportunity to know what is going on in my head! :)
I do appreciate all of you and your support and encouragement. I hope you are doing well. Spring is upon us, I know it seem hard to believe after having ice and snow on my van this morning but Spring is coming! So get outside, go for a walk, a bike ride, working in the garden, enjoy your life. As we are out and about we may just loose a few pounds and gain alot of memories! Take care and blessing to you!
Sunday, January 1, 2012
I am alive!!!!
Sorry it has been so long since my last post. I had a wonderful but yet very busy fall/winter with my kids and all the holiday prep. Today starts a new year. A new chapter in many people lives. Many feel that January 1 is a clean slate and it is. My slate was pretty clean but I did do some housework today and put some of my thoughts into words. I originally sent this to some of my email friends and family but I am so serious about being kept accountable and about helping others I want to share it with you! I hope you have been well since my last post. I look forward to catching up to you all soon! Who wants to go for a walk? Here is a toast to 2012, my prayer to you is that all your goals are attainable and you have the strength, courage and support to meet them! I wanna be one of your cheerleaders. Now check out my goals for 2012! Jane
So today is January 1, 2012 and some of you may have made new years resolutions. I can not say that I made any official resolutions but I did tell myself it is time to do the following.....
1. I want to make ME a priority again. I want to remind myself that it is okay to go workout, it is okay to have my kids do some of the chores, it is okay to to not do every activity that people ask me to volunteer for and it is okay to take a nap or go to bed early. As the saying goes, "if momma isn't happy, nobody is happy" Well if the body is not happy; physically, emotionally and spiritually then you are not going to be your best. I want to be my best!
2. I want to date in 2012. Okay no, you did not miss anything! I am still happily married to Tony but I want to fall in love all over again. We have not fallen out of love but I do not want to ever fall away from what made us a family....two people saying I do.
3. I want to grow closer with God. What a typical resolution. I feel like the Sprandel home is a Christian home but I feel that we need to share our love with the Lord with others and it is time we find that church family we have been looking for.
4. I want to inspire others to find change also. I want to help others change 1 or many things in their lives. I want to be there for my friends, family and acquaintances. If I can help you make any change or improve an area of your life I want to be that person you reach out to and feel comfortable to share your highs lows and everything in between.
5. I want to get back to trying to make good health decisions. Sort of got into not eating as well as I was. I want to remind myself that I should not deprive myself of my wants but moderation is always the key.
6. I want to get back to spending quality time at the gym. I am a happier person when I spend time working out. I can not let my "busy" life interfere with that!
7. I want to become less addicted to screen time. I am going to try to spend more time reading and doing physical things this winter especially.
8. I want to continue to show my family my everlasting love and dedication to them, my country and their school.
9. I want to remind myself that jobs will come and go but family is forever and I have to put my family first.
10. I want to lastly remind myself that it has taken me almost 36 years to get to this point in my life and each day is a new one and we can not change things overnight.
I have shared what I want in 2012. What are your goals? Your dreams? Your aspirations? Can I help you with any of them? I pray that 2012 brings you good health, love, and security. I am here for you, but I ask one thing......you continue to help inspire me on my journey of life! God Bless you! Jane
So today is January 1, 2012 and some of you may have made new years resolutions. I can not say that I made any official resolutions but I did tell myself it is time to do the following.....
1. I want to make ME a priority again. I want to remind myself that it is okay to go workout, it is okay to have my kids do some of the chores, it is okay to to not do every activity that people ask me to volunteer for and it is okay to take a nap or go to bed early. As the saying goes, "if momma isn't happy, nobody is happy" Well if the body is not happy; physically, emotionally and spiritually then you are not going to be your best. I want to be my best!
2. I want to date in 2012. Okay no, you did not miss anything! I am still happily married to Tony but I want to fall in love all over again. We have not fallen out of love but I do not want to ever fall away from what made us a family....two people saying I do.
3. I want to grow closer with God. What a typical resolution. I feel like the Sprandel home is a Christian home but I feel that we need to share our love with the Lord with others and it is time we find that church family we have been looking for.
4. I want to inspire others to find change also. I want to help others change 1 or many things in their lives. I want to be there for my friends, family and acquaintances. If I can help you make any change or improve an area of your life I want to be that person you reach out to and feel comfortable to share your highs lows and everything in between.
5. I want to get back to trying to make good health decisions. Sort of got into not eating as well as I was. I want to remind myself that I should not deprive myself of my wants but moderation is always the key.
6. I want to get back to spending quality time at the gym. I am a happier person when I spend time working out. I can not let my "busy" life interfere with that!
7. I want to become less addicted to screen time. I am going to try to spend more time reading and doing physical things this winter especially.
8. I want to continue to show my family my everlasting love and dedication to them, my country and their school.
9. I want to remind myself that jobs will come and go but family is forever and I have to put my family first.
10. I want to lastly remind myself that it has taken me almost 36 years to get to this point in my life and each day is a new one and we can not change things overnight.
I have shared what I want in 2012. What are your goals? Your dreams? Your aspirations? Can I help you with any of them? I pray that 2012 brings you good health, love, and security. I am here for you, but I ask one thing......you continue to help inspire me on my journey of life! God Bless you! Jane
Monday, October 24, 2011
Time to get back on track
We just returned home from our family vacation weekend to Ohio where we went to King’s Island for their Halloween fest. We had a great time! In many ways this trip is the final hurrah of the season now it is time to get serious about the rest of the year.
Since Tony and I both work retail the next several weeks will be extremely busy with the holiday season. So work will keep us both on our toes!! The girls have been putting a lot of time and practice into their upcoming play, Aesop’s Fables and Christmas Surprise. Their performance is set for the first two weekends of December so on Monday, Tue and Thursday nights that is where we will be practicing for the next several weeks and shows on Fridays, Saturdays and Sundays. We are all very much looking forward to the shows. Seth has offered to help with the production and has been named the props man and he is eager to help all the actors with this production. Seth is also playing basketball this year for his school and looking forward to another great season. The kids are busy which makes me very busy, I am busy at work and then somewhere in all of this craziness I need to take some time out for ME!!!!
I have sort of allowed myself to do like most moms and put myself in the backseat. I have not been working out at the gym lately because I do not have “time” I have so much other stuff to do. Well I have made the decision that vacation is over and I need to take some me time starting this week. Another thing I am going to do to help me “get back on track” is to journal everything I eat and try to get more protein in my diet. I guess when I say get back on track I do not have a lot to be frustrated about….my weight really has not changed, I get more compliments than ever on how great I look but I know that I am stuck….When you go from losing 5 pounds or more a week to less that 4 a month….it can be a bit frustrating so I just need to kick start myself again. Nothing major. I love to work out and it makes me feel great so it is time I take my ME time again.
I am looking forward to getting back on my path of increased health. What can you do to help your long term health? What can I do to help?? As always thanks for sticking by me and take some time for YOU today!
Since Tony and I both work retail the next several weeks will be extremely busy with the holiday season. So work will keep us both on our toes!! The girls have been putting a lot of time and practice into their upcoming play, Aesop’s Fables and Christmas Surprise. Their performance is set for the first two weekends of December so on Monday, Tue and Thursday nights that is where we will be practicing for the next several weeks and shows on Fridays, Saturdays and Sundays. We are all very much looking forward to the shows. Seth has offered to help with the production and has been named the props man and he is eager to help all the actors with this production. Seth is also playing basketball this year for his school and looking forward to another great season. The kids are busy which makes me very busy, I am busy at work and then somewhere in all of this craziness I need to take some time out for ME!!!!
I have sort of allowed myself to do like most moms and put myself in the backseat. I have not been working out at the gym lately because I do not have “time” I have so much other stuff to do. Well I have made the decision that vacation is over and I need to take some me time starting this week. Another thing I am going to do to help me “get back on track” is to journal everything I eat and try to get more protein in my diet. I guess when I say get back on track I do not have a lot to be frustrated about….my weight really has not changed, I get more compliments than ever on how great I look but I know that I am stuck….When you go from losing 5 pounds or more a week to less that 4 a month….it can be a bit frustrating so I just need to kick start myself again. Nothing major. I love to work out and it makes me feel great so it is time I take my ME time again.
I am looking forward to getting back on my path of increased health. What can you do to help your long term health? What can I do to help?? As always thanks for sticking by me and take some time for YOU today!
Tuesday, September 27, 2011
Getting Personal
Our local newspaper. The News Gazette runs a weekly article in the Sunday living section called Getting Personal. The writer Meg Dickenson, interviews well known people or people you should know from around the area. Today she encouraged local people who blog to answer the following questions and she may feature some of our answers in an upcoming article. So here are some of my immediate answers that I thought up tonight. Enjoy! Jane
Jane Sprandel, 35 Living in Thomasboro, originally from Cissna Park IL
Profession: Work as a grocery inventory analyst for the Champaign Meijer store
What time do you typically get up? What do you do the first hour of the morning? I get up at 4am Monday-Friday I try to only hit the snooze once, weigh, brush my teeth and such, get dressed grab my pills and head off to work to clock in by 5am.
What did you have for lunch today? Had a late lunch of popcorn. Where? At home after work and running errands. With whom my kids were home but they had already had a snack when I made my popcorn
Best high school memory. I have loved sports all my life and while in high school I did some work as a student athletic trainer.
Tell me about your favorite pair of shoes. They would have to be my orange and blue Illini crocs
What does a perfect Sunday afternoon include? Watching a game of football with my family. Right now my son plays for the Rantoul Falcons but also love to root for the Steelers!
Was there one book you read as a child that you still cherish? Own? Read? I Will Love You Forever! Love to still read it to my kids. Often give it as a shower gift!
Where on earth are you dying to go? Why? I would like to go to Germany with my husband. I was there as a high school student for an exchange but would like to go there again with him. It is such a wonderful place!
Tell me about your favorite pet. I have had several dogs in my life but my Lab Bertha was one wild girl. I can’t say if our current dogs, Tyson a boxer or our Lab Sully is my favorite….they may start pouting.
Have you discovered as you matured that you are becoming like one of your parents? I have a great loving caring heart like my mom.
Which one and how? I have always had many of my moms traits and temper but learning to be more even tempered like my dad but still very diplomatic
What would you order for your last meal? In the hope I could eat it: I would go to Outback Steakhouse. I would have a medium steak, loaded baked potato, salad with blue cheese and some of their bread. For dessert…something with Chocolate.
What can you NOT live without? My Iphone
Who do you have on your iPod? A lot of Christian artists and workout music with upbeat tempo
What’s the happiest memory of your life? The day I married my husband Tony and promised to love his two kids Seth and McKenna as my kids and then when we brought our daughter Raegyn into the world. Family is so important to me!
If you could host a dinner party with any three living people in the world, whom would you invite? Sarah Palin, Julia Roberts, Jodi Picoult
What’s the best advice you’ve ever been given? If you can go to bed at night and know that the Lord would be proud of you then it was a successful day.
What’s your best piece of advice? Never have regrets. Maybe wish things would have happened differently but in the end we all learn from our mistakes and challenges.
What was your first job, and how much did you make an hour? I worked at our school/public library in Cissna Park while in high school. Thinking about $4.35 per hour
What was a pivotal decision in your career, and how did you arrive at that decision? I decided to leave retail management so I could focus on being a mom. I am currently a full time working mom but at least I have a set schedule with some flexability to participate in my kids activities.
Do you have a bad habit? What is it?
How do you handle a stressful situation? I am learning to try to work out, call a friend or sometimes just have a good cry. I do a lot of praying so that helps me work through the tough times.
Jane Sprandel, 35 Living in Thomasboro, originally from Cissna Park IL
Profession: Work as a grocery inventory analyst for the Champaign Meijer store
What time do you typically get up? What do you do the first hour of the morning? I get up at 4am Monday-Friday I try to only hit the snooze once, weigh, brush my teeth and such, get dressed grab my pills and head off to work to clock in by 5am.
What did you have for lunch today? Had a late lunch of popcorn. Where? At home after work and running errands. With whom my kids were home but they had already had a snack when I made my popcorn
Best high school memory. I have loved sports all my life and while in high school I did some work as a student athletic trainer.
Tell me about your favorite pair of shoes. They would have to be my orange and blue Illini crocs
What does a perfect Sunday afternoon include? Watching a game of football with my family. Right now my son plays for the Rantoul Falcons but also love to root for the Steelers!
Was there one book you read as a child that you still cherish? Own? Read? I Will Love You Forever! Love to still read it to my kids. Often give it as a shower gift!
Where on earth are you dying to go? Why? I would like to go to Germany with my husband. I was there as a high school student for an exchange but would like to go there again with him. It is such a wonderful place!
Tell me about your favorite pet. I have had several dogs in my life but my Lab Bertha was one wild girl. I can’t say if our current dogs, Tyson a boxer or our Lab Sully is my favorite….they may start pouting.
Have you discovered as you matured that you are becoming like one of your parents? I have a great loving caring heart like my mom.
Which one and how? I have always had many of my moms traits and temper but learning to be more even tempered like my dad but still very diplomatic
What would you order for your last meal? In the hope I could eat it: I would go to Outback Steakhouse. I would have a medium steak, loaded baked potato, salad with blue cheese and some of their bread. For dessert…something with Chocolate.
What can you NOT live without? My Iphone
Who do you have on your iPod? A lot of Christian artists and workout music with upbeat tempo
What’s the happiest memory of your life? The day I married my husband Tony and promised to love his two kids Seth and McKenna as my kids and then when we brought our daughter Raegyn into the world. Family is so important to me!
If you could host a dinner party with any three living people in the world, whom would you invite? Sarah Palin, Julia Roberts, Jodi Picoult
What’s the best advice you’ve ever been given? If you can go to bed at night and know that the Lord would be proud of you then it was a successful day.
What’s your best piece of advice? Never have regrets. Maybe wish things would have happened differently but in the end we all learn from our mistakes and challenges.
What was your first job, and how much did you make an hour? I worked at our school/public library in Cissna Park while in high school. Thinking about $4.35 per hour
What was a pivotal decision in your career, and how did you arrive at that decision? I decided to leave retail management so I could focus on being a mom. I am currently a full time working mom but at least I have a set schedule with some flexability to participate in my kids activities.
Do you have a bad habit? What is it?
How do you handle a stressful situation? I am learning to try to work out, call a friend or sometimes just have a good cry. I do a lot of praying so that helps me work through the tough times.
Rain Rain go away!!!!
Where is the sun? So it is the second day of this gloomy weather and I am ready for the sun to come out!!! When the weather is gloomy it is hard to feel excited and happy about the things around you. Overall today was a good day despite the weather. I was able to find positive things on this gloomy day. I seen a post from the News Gazette on Face book today encouraging local bloggers to fill out a questioner to possibly be used in a future story. Each Sunday they interview a local celebrity about a variety of things. I decided that I could do the survey. It does not matter if my answers are used, because I was able to see what a great life I have. Up to now I have had a good life and the future is even brighter for me. We all have our challenges day to day and I am learning to deal with them more each day. I feel like as the pounds come off my ability to encourage others has increased. One of my friends recently went to the doctor and he suggested that she take part in a very aggressive type of diet. This diet is very expensive so it is not a possibility at this time for my friend. I have tried to reassure her that she can lose weight by just watching what she eats, how much she tries to work extra movement into her daily life, but most importantly she has to BELIEVE in herself, but also I am here for her. The thing that has helped me the most with my success is that I have believed in myself and others have also believed that I can be successful. Today I was proud of myself for not letting my work stress get the best of me. Work has been hectic lately but I am getting better about only freaking out about the things that I can control. Instead of freaking out I decided to work hard on modeling the behaviors that I want some of my coworkers to mimic. I can only hope that they noticed how I try to do all that I can to help the team with a smile.
It always makes me feel great when I have people comment on my amazing weight loss. I prefer to call it a transformation. Not only have I lost a large amount of weight but I have also gained a lot of self confidence. I enjoy blogging and sharing my story with others in hopes to inspire others to do something to improve their lives in one way or another. I want to inspire others to make a change to make their life even better than what it was the day before. I seen a post on someone’s face book page the other day, “ is it more important to be remembered as being a giver or one than who takes more than they give?” Of course most want to be remembered as a giver but sometimes it is bad to give to much. I need to learn to let others help me and rely on them more than I do. I tend to do to much and then get overwhelmed.
I am busy with work, being a great mom, driving kids all around and trying to work on my overall transformation but yet I like to take some time and blog and inspire others. How did your day go? What can I do to inspire you? Helping you make me stay accountable too! Have a blessed day!
It always makes me feel great when I have people comment on my amazing weight loss. I prefer to call it a transformation. Not only have I lost a large amount of weight but I have also gained a lot of self confidence. I enjoy blogging and sharing my story with others in hopes to inspire others to do something to improve their lives in one way or another. I want to inspire others to make a change to make their life even better than what it was the day before. I seen a post on someone’s face book page the other day, “ is it more important to be remembered as being a giver or one than who takes more than they give?” Of course most want to be remembered as a giver but sometimes it is bad to give to much. I need to learn to let others help me and rely on them more than I do. I tend to do to much and then get overwhelmed.
I am busy with work, being a great mom, driving kids all around and trying to work on my overall transformation but yet I like to take some time and blog and inspire others. How did your day go? What can I do to inspire you? Helping you make me stay accountable too! Have a blessed day!
Sunday, September 25, 2011
Overwhelmed
Overwhelmed is how I feel lately. I am a very busy mom to three wonderful kids, I try to be a great wife, I am a busy advocate for our school, and I work full time. Add to that I am trying to get my self to a set goal on the scale and that can spell disaster! Life changes are a journey with no distinct beginning or end. I began the journey of weight loss to shed some weight to get healthy. Never did I dream that I would have lost over 100 pounds in less than a year. Never did I dream that I would fall in love with the gym. Never did I think I would be wearing a size 18 pair of Levi's rather than a size 28 from Lane Bryant. Never did I think I would be able to self talk myself to doing some running on a treadmill to finish a mile with a personal record. Nor did I think that some days it would be hard!
I always say since this is my blog I can say what I want! Well to be honest Lap Band and weight loss surgeries in general get a bad rap. Over the weekend one of my favorite trainers Jillian Michael's posted a link about a woman dying from Lap Band. I was upset with the article! It sounds like to me the lady was at a quack job type of place to begin with. The simple truth is this. Can you die from Lap Band of course you can. What you have to do if find an approved specialist to make sure that the surgery is right for you and you know what is involved with the surgery.
I have talked about how the biggest battle of Lap Band for me is still controlling the "emotional" eating. I have had a stressful week and there were times were I felt that a chocolate shake or ice cream would make everything all better. Truth is it doesn't and it takes willpower to not allow those old ways to creep back into your life.
I had a really bad day on Wednesday and I was asked if I wanted to take rest of the day off or a few days off. I must have really been crazy. I decided no that I was going to regroup and be a big girl and take the issues one step at a time. So after a great pep talk from my friend Becky I was able to pull up my saggy pants and go out there and control what I could at work and what was not my problem or I could not control....I was going to try not to let it bother me. This is extremely hard for a perfectionist.
So Thursday and Friday I did pretty good at work taking care of what I can control and what is my responsibility and not letting other things overwhelme me. Looking forward to another great week at work starting tomorrow at 5am.
Over the weekend I was able to get alot of house cleaning done and it was needed! I threw away some stuff, started getting rid of some stuff that is to big, and that is always a great feeling. So it is Sunday night and I had a great day at Seth's football game, had a wonderful family meal with all 5 of us and my dad came over for ham, cheesy potatoes, green beans, It was yummy. Made a couple of pans of Pumpkin bars and like usual Raegyn and I took some to the older couple next door. It just warms my heart to share with them. Getting ready to watch some Steelers football with my boys!
So work is going better, good weekend at home, that just leaves my journey. I did alot of thinking this weekend about my journey. I am so pleased with my journey but I have gotten a little off track on it so I have set the goal to work out more this week, do my at home physical therapy for my shoulder, eat better and try to take some me time this week. I have been so busy focusing on my family and my job that I sort of forgot about my journey a little. I need to make it a priority since when I make JANE a priority everything else falls into place. I will try to blog more in the next few weeks while I get back on track. Please keep me accountable. Also along the way remind me to take me time, to not sweat the little stuff and especially to not sweat the stuff I can not control if I am going to sweat it better be on the treadmill!! Take care of yourself. What can I do to help you???
I always say since this is my blog I can say what I want! Well to be honest Lap Band and weight loss surgeries in general get a bad rap. Over the weekend one of my favorite trainers Jillian Michael's posted a link about a woman dying from Lap Band. I was upset with the article! It sounds like to me the lady was at a quack job type of place to begin with. The simple truth is this. Can you die from Lap Band of course you can. What you have to do if find an approved specialist to make sure that the surgery is right for you and you know what is involved with the surgery.
I have talked about how the biggest battle of Lap Band for me is still controlling the "emotional" eating. I have had a stressful week and there were times were I felt that a chocolate shake or ice cream would make everything all better. Truth is it doesn't and it takes willpower to not allow those old ways to creep back into your life.
I had a really bad day on Wednesday and I was asked if I wanted to take rest of the day off or a few days off. I must have really been crazy. I decided no that I was going to regroup and be a big girl and take the issues one step at a time. So after a great pep talk from my friend Becky I was able to pull up my saggy pants and go out there and control what I could at work and what was not my problem or I could not control....I was going to try not to let it bother me. This is extremely hard for a perfectionist.
So Thursday and Friday I did pretty good at work taking care of what I can control and what is my responsibility and not letting other things overwhelme me. Looking forward to another great week at work starting tomorrow at 5am.
Over the weekend I was able to get alot of house cleaning done and it was needed! I threw away some stuff, started getting rid of some stuff that is to big, and that is always a great feeling. So it is Sunday night and I had a great day at Seth's football game, had a wonderful family meal with all 5 of us and my dad came over for ham, cheesy potatoes, green beans, It was yummy. Made a couple of pans of Pumpkin bars and like usual Raegyn and I took some to the older couple next door. It just warms my heart to share with them. Getting ready to watch some Steelers football with my boys!
So work is going better, good weekend at home, that just leaves my journey. I did alot of thinking this weekend about my journey. I am so pleased with my journey but I have gotten a little off track on it so I have set the goal to work out more this week, do my at home physical therapy for my shoulder, eat better and try to take some me time this week. I have been so busy focusing on my family and my job that I sort of forgot about my journey a little. I need to make it a priority since when I make JANE a priority everything else falls into place. I will try to blog more in the next few weeks while I get back on track. Please keep me accountable. Also along the way remind me to take me time, to not sweat the little stuff and especially to not sweat the stuff I can not control if I am going to sweat it better be on the treadmill!! Take care of yourself. What can I do to help you???
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